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hais. i feeling super depressed. i nearly knocked down by a car. i was walking out of the school gate, didn't realise that the traffic light was red and i just walked out until i saw a red car, then i realised that i was J-walking. i didn't know what am i doing. my mind was totally blank. i don't know what am i doing. all i was thinking is, how should i ask the people to pay money. I'm just like a loan shark walking around the class begging people to give me the money. teacher keep asking me for the money when i can't collect the full amount. some people want to go popular and buy, some say don't want to buy, some say i don't have money to pay. hais. ALL CRAPS! enough of everything! okays! is totally enough!! STUDIES IS MAKING ME CRAZY AND THIS IS JUST PUTTING MORE STUFF ON ME. ENOUGH!! TOTALLY ENOUGH! i hate being a treasure. so what if i have a post in a class ex co? nice to hear but NO NICE TO DO! increase the interest still no one willing to pay except those who pay me today (= thanks alot. even jiantat, paid up. the rest? i just feel like slapping them. asking them to give money. HEY CHILDISH! give money also cannot? as if i use the money. i take this money for what? even if i take, i will feel guilty too. SO WHY? you tell me why?
ANOTHER ONE. TEACHER WANT TO COLLECTION $4.10. ANOTHER ONE! collect money all over again. is enough. i thought i can rest for a few days not collecting money and now ANOTHER ONE! nice shot man!!
NICE, a big clap for me *claps claps* enough is enough. i been struggling with the money. own ms Chan money for last year class fund and i want to return her by this year. i don't want her to pay for us. i feel very guilty.is like i never go the job properly. even i loss that $2 i feel guilty. how am i going to collect when they are not cooperating with me. some yes i know they are good. sure give me that sum of money some HAIS. don't say already. enough of everything. my brain is going to burst one day. I'm going to scold those people who didn't pay. I'm just controlling myself not to scold people. )=

posted by vivianpengyiting @ 2:39 PM