I'm angry with you is because i can't stand the way you talked to me sometimes. example : i wanted to talk to you and you scolded me basket? if I'm the one talking to you and i scold you basket and turn away, what's your feeling? sometimes i really cannot control my feelings. you beat me, i shut up. i didn't say a single shit. sometimes you beat me, i say ' hey don't beat le lah. pain want leis !' sometimes i really just feel like shouting at you. maybe i have changed to be bad again OR maybe i changed to a good person. yes,sometimes I'm at fault, i beat you, i scream at you,do loads of funny things to make everyone laugh. sometimes i feel embarrassed but i just make my 'skin thick' try to make you all laugh. try to make myself happy. but everything is going beyond my limit. i didn't talked to you this few days is to try to calm myself down and try not to be angry. make myself a happy last day of term one. sometimes your action you do is nothing but it will hurt someone and deeply. i wanted to talk to you but sometimes before i opened my mouth, things came into my mind. the devil and the good want. they started telling me, don't talk to her. another say talk to you. i began to be so vexed. i don't know should i talk to you. that's the reason why i didn't talk to you for like 4 days? i may be moody this few days as I'm really very busy with the shopping blog, helping my sister write those address and study. i didn't have time to think is this the right thing I'm doing? am i hurting you so much? I'm like running with the time, every second every minute. running around the house. shouting at my sister (eldest/small) I'm also tired. later have to pick up my sister and go flea to find my sister and mother. I'm also tired. truly tired. i have totally no time for everything. i wish i have more time. i see my progress i just feel like bashing myself! is totally a shit piece of the progress card. i wish to spent more time on my studies and friends. but every time my sister will be messaging my, HEY BE BACK EARLY! HELP ME DO THINGS!~ and do you think i have time to think about all this stuffs? may be i mess this whole things. may be I'm just so childish doing this stuff maybe I'm tired of everything? maybe i don't even know why i wanted to quarrel with you. i don't know. I'm tired also. i don't know. seriously i don't know what am i thhinking also. maybe i should say, sorry for messing this whole thing up. hope you will understand.
well, maybe this whole thing will come to an end.
posted by vivianpengyiting @ 4:54 PM
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